so this is random but I’ve been wanting to get it off my chest, but to the people that think I’m a hoe you can go fuck yourselves. like in all honesty I could give a shit less about what people think about me, except for that. that’s the thing that always bugs me in the back of my head. I mean yeah I’ve slept w a few guys but I did it to try & forget. bc I don’t know, giving my virginity to the wrong guy who asked to be just friends the next day after leading me on to believe he was in love w me for the past year & a half really did something to me. I know that’s not an excuse but I guess I did it to try forget him, or take my feelings out thru sex. idk if I’m making sense but I’m not quite sure how to put my thoughts into words. & lucky me those others I shared myself w also have loud mouths so plenty people think I’m a slut, & there are rumors I’ve gotten a train ran on me by 8 guys. I mean me & my friends know it’s not true but I don’t want someone who doesn’t know me on a personal level to have a first impression of me like that, & yeah. but in the end all I’m saying is so what I slept w 5 guys. my virginity was an asshole who didn’t deserve it, which come on.. I’m not the first to make that mistake, & the next 3 were drunken mistakes & then #5 is my boyfriend of almost 6 months. it could be a lot fucking worse. yeah I’m done now.
It just really irks me when someone says “you post weird things on tumblr” or ask “why did you post that?”… I’m not posting anything to please you, at all. It’s my way of letting out how I feel at the moment or my thoughts, so if you don’t like it then please keep your comments to yourself because I give 0 fucks on what you think, thank you 😄